I have this inane feeling that no one really wants me. I have been told since I was a small child that I was a special kid, that I was different from all the others. It was ingrained in my brain that I would be a magnificent person, I would do amazing things and that I could be anything I wanted. But after 234 some odd years, the United States has only had 42 presidents.
Im have only come to this realization that I am not all that after reading my rejection letter from the University of Washington, my lack of finding a job and that I have to have my parents pay for my trip to New York. I really have nothing going for me that a million other people dont have. And this sucks. It also hurts more than I thought it would.
Because not only am I not good enough, but im starting to feel unloveable. My best friend of five years has recently jumped ship as well as the guy I thought liked me. Not to mention the fact that one of my greatest friends’ parents are disappointed in me. I just have a whole lot of suck happening to me.